I’m someone floating and drowning with sadness.

I can’t save myself anymore.

I see everyone else living their life to the fullest.

While I just float away and observing life like I am a third person.

I know I don’t have a future. My life is floating away and there is nothing I can do about it.

I’m tired of living in a heightened, fearful, conservative, “do safe” things of life.

I don’t like how people have chopped off my identity of being a guy.

I am embarrassed of being who I am. I wished I was stronger, more independent, much stronger.

I wished I had a stronger family.

I wished the important people in my life were held accountable of their blatant weakness and lack of strength.

I was born a hopeless autistic, and I will die as one.

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