I’m someone floating and drowning with sadness.
I can’t save myself anymore.
I see everyone else living their life to the fullest.
While I just float away and observing life like I am a third person.
I know I don’t have a future. My life is floating away and there is nothing I can do about it.
I’m tired of living in a heightened, fearful, conservative, “do safe” things of life.
I don’t like how people have chopped off my identity of being a guy.
I am embarrassed of being who I am. I wished I was stronger, more independent, much stronger.
I wished I had a stronger family.
I wished the important people in my life were held accountable of their blatant weakness and lack of strength.
I was born a hopeless autistic, and I will die as one.